despite all worries,this is my stories

I saw you behind the glass with clear and vivid memories of your smile,  You always find away to turn back on me, not see me nor the many pairs of eyes watched u. You always feel uncomfortable when u stand in front of me, but when u beside me the shynesss just swept  I could never see your eyes when we talked coz it felt you fascinate or you being polite,  I could only see you when you are not see me. Imagine that you smiled at me, that u spoke to me without works Behind whatever that goes through your mind, i couldnt careless about your life. Im attract into your act. I dont want to know you personal, im just happy with what im seeing. Every now and then, i wish to see you again, just to remind me that sparks was not a flame.

Life goes on and you stump upon many occasion and problems. When i was single, i wanted to get married  Now im married i want to have child. The things is im on my way to 40 , so we can called it high risk  And i had misscariage that's adding the list. So... With all so many wishlist im so stressed out, Im insecure. Everybody said dont stress just surrender. Live your life everyday. Be grateful. I am grateful, but i also know i need to be better.  I dont know how. Most everyone said  i need to rest, resign from all the stress of work. Then i become stress for financial secure. You stump upon many things in life. You just to know and have the courage to believe in yourself That this too shall pass. But whre do i begin?