despite all worries,this is my stories

Sudah mau selesai lagi ramadhan kali ini, setiap bulan Juni - July adalah bulan galau buat saya. Iya... bulan dimana saya sangat sangat paling merindu alm. papa. sudah mendekati 8 tahun bearti beliau pergi, time flies. setiap saya menulis ttg beliau ataupun mengingat, saya pasti berkaca - kaca. seperti inilah superman ketemu kriptonite. seperti inilah saya. yang membuat saya galau mungkin karena kehadiran papa saya terutama ramadhan sangat menginsipirasi. papa saya bukan orang yang ilmu agamanya tinggi , baca alquran pun lebih enak mendengar audio. tapi dia berusaha selalu menjalani rukun islam. beliau sudah 2x naik haji tanpa hambatan, sholat 5 waktu tak pernah lepas, dan amal sedekahnya banyak. disaat sebenernya perekonomian keluarga tidak 100 persen lebih. tapi cukup. yaa.. beliau berusaha mencukupi. kalo ada lebih, bearti itu ada rezeki tambahan yang bisa dia keluarkan. Bulan Ramadhan, buat beliau bukan waktunya berlomba mencari pahala, tapi gimana cara beliau mengelola pa...

today`s story is ... how i love being pregnant. yes... after unfortunate miscarriage last year, this year, at the same around of time i`m positive pregnant. pregnant is something that beyond my wildest dream, after last year un-preceded pregnancy i had my days swallowed in trauma, i had never experience such pain. i had never been hospitalized let alone under the knife. in 24 hours, i experienced all those things and the following months was recovery time. i drowned myself in worked in which i did not perform due to the condition that i have, i tried to get by each days with positive feeling that this too shall pass. as i did not expected, there`s a new breed in my womb. not only everyone was suprised, i think i was the only person who suprised and couldn`t believe what i have seen. and so days of struggle from nausea , hormonal, and everything began. And i had no idea how people can be so tremendously care when you are a pregnant. everything surrounds you seems to bring positiv...

welcoming 2017 with so many notes.The one thing that i or maybe the rest of the people hardest thing to do is to be grateful. be thankful everyday. it is hard, when since you wake up, then you get ready for activity , you keep send little complain. the water is too hot, coffee taste bad, traffic jam every miles. that... and then you go to work, you complained or heard complain from someone else about overload work, about your client, about everything.... and today... the beginning of beautiful 2017 i start myself with quietly just listen surround me, and begin to feel sensitive that you could hear each and every person complain this and that i said to myself, its fuckin annoying. i distract myself in silence, then my listening set skill become more sensitive. today.. i met grumpy people, from the start of day till this work is done. i try to stay away for every negative vibes send, and drown myself in working. as i immerse into the job im doing, i start even more felt tr...