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Tinggal sendiri berdiri Satu persatu pergi menjauh Menuju satu titik baru Tinggal sendiri berdiri Di pusaran yang tak bisa terhenti Setiap langkah terasa terbelenggu Sayup - sayup kulihat senyum bahagia Terlintas cahaya berbinar di mata Terukir kisah baru menanti Dengan 1000 cinta telah teruji Langkahku semakin menjauh Hilang tak kembali Tak lagi menoleh apa dibelakang Terus melangkah,walau terkadang merasa tak pasti Seseorang disana sedang berproses sama sepertiku

I don`t know when the tradition start. About 6 years ago i think it all start. We`re talking life,love, and crap! Though it`s not a regular thingy, but when we have time we try to to sit,drink coffee,smoke and just talking shit. This is one of our few meetings. Today, we talked about soulmate. V      : "Have you ever feel that you have a soulmate?" Me    : "Define soulmate?" V      : "You know, you find the one that like bottle cap,match,fits,and all the crap" Me   : "  I don`t know, because every guy that i`m close with had potential to become soulmate" V     : " Stupid" Me   : "Maybe i do have" V     : " Yeah, who?" Me  : " Ai, I think -- and not sure" V    : " Why you think his yours?" Me  : " Well.. when we broke up, there`s nothing wrong with our relationship, the issue was that his ego was to big for both of us. So, yeah.. we broke up.But,...

How does it feel when you received a very great news and yet devastated at the same time? For the past 15 years or so i`ve been in my comfort zone, with my comfort friend. One of them is my truly best friend.She`s like everything to me. Friend,Sister,Crazy buddy but most of all she`s a family. We had our ups and down throughout the friendship.We laughed,we don`t -speak-to each other sometimes, and had a lot of crazy nights together. Last night, i received the news on my cell.  She :'cing...  me : ya cong  she : sebenernya hari Minggu kemarin ada berita penting. Insting udah langsung jalan  me : Tunangan? udah ada tanggalnya?  she : kalo urusan gereja selesai,gue kewong tanggal 30 November  CETAAARRR...  me : aLHAMDULILLAHHHHHHH  she: Udah jadi sekarang buruan lo ke tukang jait gue mulai ukur baju.  all i can say me : Okidoki

"We are all the same in the eyes of GOD"  2 or 3 weeks ago i heard from my best friend that one of our good friend engaged. As happy as it sound, he engaged with him. yes..is a he not a she. Not in normal way we could possibly think. When the news broke i was shocked trying to digest in my mind how`s that possible.  Let me tell you about my good friend. I would not share the name but the description why i think he`s a good friend. We go way back to since high school. No, he`s not one of best friend but our circle of friends pretty much the same after high school we went to the same university. We hangout, we party together. as long as i know him, he`s a nice guy, he`s smart, and as far as i remember he don`t have enemies and he has unique face. Then he moved to American soil and stayed for almost 12 years. I also knew that he had a girlfriend. yes. girlfriend and was in on-off relationship until i heard the news from my best friend.  So, after the news a...

"Ketika kamu menyadari dirimu sudah berubah, sekitar mengikuti perubahan kamu" Kita sangat beruntung hidup tidak sendiri, selalu ada sahabat,kerabat,keluarga yang memberikan dukungan sepanjang hidup kita. kita sungguh bersyukur mendapatkan kasih sayang tak berbatas dari mereka. Namun, kadang semua mendadak tidak beraturann ketika kita berubah. Bisa tiba - tiba senyuman yang tadinya manis jadi sepet, yang tadinya baik jadi jahat dan seterusnya. Yah...sifat manusia sebenarnya tidak bisa merubah tapi kita beradaptasi dengan keadaan yang ada. Tinggal kita mengukur sejauh mana perubahan ini memberikan dampak positif dan menyebarkan virus negatif untuk sekitar kita. semakin kita dewasa, sebenarnya semakin in-secure mekanisme diri tiba - tiba , sehingga jadi mudah diserang hal -hal seperti panik attact atau sejenisnya Dan kadang - kadang setiap perubahan dalam diri kita tidak mudah dimengerti orang lain, tidak orang tua apalagi teman - teman sekitar. Tapi,pembelaannya ad...

Hello Blog, it`s been awhile. it`s been too long not pouring everything i feel in written format. so many things change,so many feelings all over the place. so many different face transform i learned,i rise,and fall loosing, having, and inventing happiness Strive to be the best as i can be trying to fall in love all over again and make peace with myself. Discover what i need the most vs what i want so bad