despite all worries,this is my stories

I had a good talked with my precious past. Precious past was something that he labeled It all started when I read his twit said something about our second home town-- for him its always first, for me a second That made me text -ed him and so the conversation continues We talked about those old good memories how were things when we were together It's heaven and he'll, heaven for me hell for him.... :) And we talked reminiscing the days I thanked him for making the person i am today He said why i thanked him, i said because of him i learned to be tough person as i have never been one I was a mood swinger back then, a melancholy person not to mention angry and grumpy There no days that he didn't suffer and catch a headache because of me. After we broke up, I made promise to myself to change with a goal to won him over again, but I lost. And the process made me the better person. I said why would he ever be friends with me after the miserable I ...

last night i was having a moment with an old friend he`s my ex bf friend. how akward was that :) but we had a good talked and laughed was surprising is that i heard what was going on about my ex bf. my ex is one hell of a fighter,a pride and proud man i`ve ever known in my life a truly gentleman. i`m not saying this because i have a feeling or somekind i say this because although i knew him short but i understand him. well...that`s what he had said to me once " when it comes to understanding me...only you could". And that he`s a genuine a man that is a man supposed to do. not chicken out of something...well..sometimes he disappeared for contemplating he said. again, what happened to him was beyond my imagination how can a pride and proud man smashed into the ground like that? with his own partner. with his trust one. If i could guess who can destroy his pride most likely he will fall into woman. but my guess is wrong after all. so my friend said "well..right now,he doesn...

A : "km lagi deket sama seseorang ya?" B : "engga" A : beneran? atau boong? B : "beneran...ngapain sih aku boong!" A : ok... Aku percaya. nah sekarang aku mau tanya "kalo kita yang kemaren" itu apa ya?" bermain - main? B : hening... icon senyum A : Kok icon ya? ini nanya serius loh. B : aku juga serius. aku belum mau berhubungan dengan siapa- siapa. kamu keberatan ya? A : iya. keberatan. A : ga semua teman pria yang deket aku K*** semua. when i do it means something. B : aku salah aku khilaf A : *thinking > is it too late to say khilaf? after a few months A : its ok. im done playing B : aku mau kita berhubungan baik. seru"an bego"an A : *thinking > lah...kemarin" emang seru dan bego kok! A : thank you for your honest answer. it`s relieving i wouldnt know if i`m not asking Next Day : B : how r u? A : baik A : lagi dimana? B : lagi sama teman" Today : B : km lagi apa? A : lagi siap" have a good day, janga...

celebrating my birthday was a little different this time i had a cake surprises from my few co-worker which is super nice but later on that night i want to celebrate it with my genuine one i celebrate my birthday at my old office of all i could spend time with my besties or love ones i wanted to celebrate with them because no one in this world i`ve known that will love me and care for me both professionally and personality than them i dont have to known each individual but i do know their genuine feeling one of them has tremendous heart. there`s nothing in this world that i have the privilege to be her friend. she`s genuine. later that night i learn something about how things works in love and friendship i had to let it go the one i truly care because he didnt care or love me and yet he doesnt want to be in relationship with me i have the most emotional birthday because my friends in my old office conduct the birthday ceremonial which was truly nice on my way home i cried i feel so sad...

Today i`m celebrating a twin number 33 33 years i`ve taken the most extraordinary journey but the road to this twin number has grown me hopefully with wisdom i lost some i win some life is battlefield hopefully with this new number i become more wiser and more in the perspective i`ve done so many things i`m most proud of but i also some other things that i`m not most proud of. But i`ll take that as a great lesson in life some of my stories so devastated and yet GOD still want me to reach for my happiness i couldn`t stop cry today. because today i making my own present thanks to genuine friend so i called him a blessing that i dare myself today with some tough decision. it shaked my world but i feel relieved. others was true blessing. i pray that GOD always give me strength. the continues powers to learn my way to HIS and i wished my papa proud of me from up above. cheers!

Today is full with little surprise and its not my birthday yet :) i ran into my old childhood friend at the gas station, we talked awhile like for 10 minutes catching up what`s happening in his life. he showed me his girlfriend which i`m sure we met her somewhere and he talked about the quality and the expectation of his future in law and he did his best to be what they wanted to be then the conversation shift about me and my other friend who apparently still single he said " this is what happening,put in our perspective as a man, i`m afraid to commit with u. you`re raising the bar. You`re smart,beautiful, and has fascinating career then our kind afraid to commit to the excelence of your needs. This is Indonesia,putri. What happened to a girl or a woman who can cook, nurturing their children,and serve their husband?" and you know why man tend to cheat? because the stereotype of a picture perfect a woman,simple and dumb. these days woman so smart than a man feels like what ab...

it was love at first sight the moment made me weak,speechless so many wished i made i had 2 hours to revealed what kind of person are you instead i laughed at you your witty action then you vanished it was love at first sight after awhile we meet you kissed me like you`ve been kissing me a thousand times then you vanished it was love at first sight you helped me then you caress me like you`ve been taking care of me a thousand times then you vanished was i ever your love at first sight?

Perhaps my feelings are misplaced Perhaps my ways of knowing your feelings was wrong And perhaps my understanding leverage to a point that u couldn’t understand Forgive me for I have extraordinary feelings and let me refrain to ordinary plot

Mood swing Mind consuming Body drop looks unwelcome There’s few things in life that we can’t predict how our days turns out But I’m here for you Looking at your pale and confused face Sharing your thoughts Holding your hands Watching your mood change Your presence My presence Our ways just meet *si A2

What seems happy hides a thousand pain What seems sad shows a thousand smile What seems right try ways to make it wrong We responsible for our own feeling We control our mind to speaks wisely We suppressed our pain and dance in glow for them So that they can judge us,they can say to us ” you look fine!”

I Learned one thing about friendship lately after i`ve been hit my series of uncomfortable event. From betrayed, being not trusthworthy, and all. At my lowest point i rethink everything about friendship, was i a good company? was i bad? am i not trustworthy? had i hurt them? all these question appears. I`m not gonna defense myself. yes,most likely i made a mistake, yes, probably i hurt them. And so i`m accepting the consequences. at the same moment a dear friends of mine noticed that something bugging me and so i told them i confess to them that i made mistake. big or small didnt really matter coz i`ve done it anyway. and they looked me and told me" why is that even your fault?", u didn`t know it what will happened?", " u knew your friends" and " how could they punished you like that?" . a dear friends told me then " don`t wasting your life on others, we`ve come so many bumpy roads to achieve what we need to accomplish, a true friend would not ma...

Ketika kita jatuh cinta segala sesuatunya menjadi make sense. Yang salah jadi bener,yang bener jadi salah. Salah seorang sahabat saya "encourage" membuat tulisan karena he thinks i`m the player! as irritated as i heard that nickname and i hate it,but look at the bright side bukan nicknamenya tapi "how to deal with those feelings towards the person we love : the rise and fall " Bukan expert juga saya di bidang hal ini, tapi pengalaman, curhatan dan inspirasi mereka yang menjadikan sebuah motivasi bahwa sharing ga ada salahnya. Apa yang saya rasakan juga kalian rasakan lebih kurangnya. segala problema cinta mana yang ga bikin manusia menjadi kepala jadi kaki kaki jadi kepala. The greatest feeling GOD ever create. saya ga tau mau mulai dari mana sharing ini tapi mari kita coba bersama. 1. Ketika Ketertarikan itu membutuhkan Timbal Balik kadang kita ga tau kapan ketertarikan terhadap seseorang timbul. ini selalu menjadi misteri darimana datangnya "reaksi kimia...