pregnant moment

today`s story is ... how i love being pregnant.
yes... after unfortunate miscarriage last year, this year, at the same around of time i`m positive pregnant.

pregnant is something that beyond my wildest dream, after last year un-preceded pregnancy i had my days swallowed in trauma, i had never experience such pain. i had never been hospitalized let alone under the knife. in 24 hours, i experienced all those things and the following months was recovery time. i drowned myself in worked in which i did not perform due to the condition that i have, i tried to get by each days with positive feeling that this too shall pass.

as i did not expected, there`s a new breed in my womb. not only everyone was suprised, i think i was the only person who suprised and couldn`t believe what i have seen.

and so days of struggle from nausea , hormonal, and everything began. And i had no idea how people can be so tremendously care when you are a pregnant. everything surrounds you seems to bring positive feeling.

but negative attention i received also. but i don`t care, like really don`t care... i do what`s best for my unborn child.

today is my 20weeks, like many new moms the anxiety, worries, and yet excited continues. there were times i just want to quit my jobs, being at home, take care of myself and my baby. i want to do yoga full time, eat right,and stuff. then, im thinkin,, hey.. being pregnant has all it perks why not use it. and so i did ... the positive perks that is.. :)

of course in my condition, i carry this baby in almost 40 yo, so i'm in watch list, i also need to know what might that risk are.

i learned not to be drawn by the comments or judge people. i listen to those who truly cares and those advise really good.

my husband,of course plays important role in time of my pregnancy. although, i could fully plays apart as wife but he understand. this pregnancy have brings us into more serious on how we shaping our life moving forward.

so today`s story has bring me into some level of grateful i could ever possibly have. and i`m happy.
i enjoy every moment of it.

may this baby makes me a better human being,


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