A Friday contemplation

There Was a time when I questioned everything what had happened in my life
But never questioned my decision. Had I make a bad choices or not.
Whatever happened in my life I take it as something meant to be, whether I make a difference or not
But some says our life destiny is in our hand,so does it mean we can control iand told our life to obey what we've been told?

One night I was having a conversation with my friends, basically my conclusion is think whatever u want it to do and no regret whatever happen,we were talking about relationship. As we talked my mind rewind about what happened in those good old romance. Had I say something to the one I love, he might consider me or not but it gives something to think about. Most of them I let it go, consciously. Without thinking of fighting it back because something I believe. 'when it's time it's time" but it would be another different story if I was fighting it.

And there I am today, standing still. Single. Not because I want it but because I haven't found the ultimate person who move me. There was back then though but I'm letting go with gladly.

Some says I picky there is true,but why won't we picked the right one? And sometimes is not even the right one,simply we can't get what we Want and questioning what we need constantly

I think is about time to really pay attention to what we need because eventually people be with each other because they see the life the couldn't live without each other.

If it's true destiny is our hand, then it's our job to tell destiny to obey us.

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