Precious past

I had a good talked with my precious past.
Precious past was something that he labeled
It all started when I read his twit said something about our second home town-- for him its always first, for me a second
That made me text -ed him and so the conversation continues

We talked about those old good memories how were things when we were together
It's heaven and he'll, heaven for me hell for him.... :)
And we talked reminiscing the days

I thanked him for making the person i am today
He said why i thanked him, i said because of him i learned to be tough person as i have never been one

I was a mood swinger back then, a melancholy person not to mention angry and grumpy
There no days that he didn't suffer and catch a headache because of me.

After we broke up, I made promise to myself to change with a goal to won him over again, but I lost.
And the process made me the better person.

I said why would he ever be friends with me after the miserable I put him through,
He said we've been friends ever since and I'm not letting go the opportunity to keep in touch with my precious past
And because without all the mislead habit I'm the nicest person he's truly care.

It's good thought when u have someone thinks that you're still have one solid character that everybody remember
Despite all the drama in your life
I felt like he could see me both bad and good and he stick with me,watching me as I changed and grown to be a good-rich person.
Because he believed I'm more than he ever known
It's hard for me to find that kind of person, who actually believes in you psychological good and perfect amount of sexy physical

I wish Ive been given that chance again

So I got say the best wished for my precious past and hoping to meet the precious future in the present time.

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