Birthday

 Today i`m 43..

I have live my life for that long. 

I`m grateful and anxious at the same time. 

how much time do i have? 

will i make it another miles ? 


Today.. only 1 person called .. somewhow, i kinda appreciate it. Everybody, only share their wishes through posting, through text, avoiding the voice, avoiding chit chat. I felt, special in a way. that 1 person called .. spending a few minutes just to wish me happy birthday. 

I havent talk to another human being other than family members which that also few words a day. That`s the best present for today. A conversation. 


A conversation --- a rare items lately. 


People said a person can`t change. I have changed from extrovert to introvert , i used to think what will you do if you dont have friends, no people to to talk to. Guess i`m living it now. no friends, no people to talk to. Do i feel depressed? sometimes. But, rather hold your peace than open your mouth. 


My Motto that i strongly believe, better die in silence that way, i reduce my sins, that way i didn`t no harm. that way i`m at peace. 


I wish i have more time with my daughter. i wish i have more time to tell her, to guide her , to be by her side. 

that will be my wish. 


Happy Birthday to me. 

Stay Strong because strong is your only option. 


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