Me And One of My gal

I don`t know when the tradition start. About 6 years ago i think it all start. We`re talking life,love, and crap!
Though it`s not a regular thingy, but when we have time we try to to sit,drink coffee,smoke and just talking shit.


This is one of our few meetings. Today, we talked about soulmate.


V      : "Have you ever feel that you have a soulmate?"
Me    : "Define soulmate?"
V      : "You know, you find the one that like bottle cap,match,fits,and all the crap"
Me   : "  I don`t know, because every guy that i`m close with had potential to become soulmate"
V     : " Stupid"



Me   : "Maybe i do have"
V     : " Yeah, who?"
Me  : " Ai, I think -- and not sure"
V    : " Why you think his yours?"
Me  : " Well.. when we broke up, there`s nothing wrong with our relationship, the issue was that his ego was to big for both of us. So, yeah.. we broke up.But, from the moment that we broke up, i said to myself that i will not abandoned him, like i will always be with him everytime he needs me. Talk, or sharing things. I will be his go-to- person. And i said to myself he will not find someone who`s genuine like me"

V : " and..?"
Me : "He`s come around. But not trying to rekindle the flame. It`s just a good relationship
V   : " Its love,stupid"
Me : " Hmmm... i`ve been meaning to find and define that. So.. maybe you`re right. Its love"
V   : " Of course its love. Without you try to be back to his life, now you have access to messed his life. You said you`re not waiting and not wanting. Yet, here you are. You loved him"
Me : " can we get the bill?"


V : " I think i fall in love with my ex boss"
Me : " Are you kidding me?". That shitty playboy.
V : " yeah." We had chemistry in-terms of working and not discuss our private life
Me : " Even if you had discussion about that, there`s no way you`ll be with him"
V : " I know. Sucks. He will not leave his family for sure"
Me : " Yeah.."
V : " Where`s the bill? why it takes so long"



 That`s the newest we exchanged and also about how i become close with his ex-boyfriend and she said i`ll be stupid ass if i don`t ended up with his ex. See.. How twisted our friendship?
    

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