My Best friend wedding

How does it feel when you received a very great news and yet devastated at the same time? For the past 15 years or so i`ve been in my comfort zone, with my comfort friend. One of them is my truly best friend.She`s like everything to me. Friend,Sister,Crazy buddy but most of all she`s a family. We had our ups and down throughout the friendship.We laughed,we don`t -speak-to each other sometimes, and had a lot of crazy nights together. Last night, i received the news on my cell.

 She :'cing...
 me : ya cong
 she : sebenernya hari Minggu kemarin ada berita penting.

Insting udah langsung jalan

 me : Tunangan? udah ada tanggalnya?
 she : kalo urusan gereja selesai,gue kewong tanggal 30 November

 CETAAARRR...

 me : aLHAMDULILLAHHHHHHH
 she: Udah jadi sekarang buruan lo ke tukang jait gue mulai ukur baju.

 all i can say me : Okidoki



 later that night i`m still processing this conversation in my head. What? whatta? how? why? I`m so happy that she`s got herself a very fine gentleman. They`ve known each other since 1996, have been friends all along and about 4 months or 5 months they decided to become couples.

 How crazy was that? She always said that she most likely ended up marrying her friend and She did. She believed it. With no fairy tales how it will end. I shed tears for no reason. I blame PMS :) but it`s not it. There goes another friend take another step of life. And i feel ... stuck in the moment, figured it out which moment i`m in on the contrary,last night i had a great laugh with my i-think-he`s-gay new friend At The same time i received the news.

 So... how can i felt 2 feelings at once? its freakin' heavy. Heard your ex gettin married is easy. Heard your best friend married, like you will lost them for good. My other single best friend at the moment said to me this morning," the time will be ours". "Be patient" well.. frankly speaking its not comforting word, but it`s the word that i should hear,because it`s true. When the time is right, it will be perfect.


 What now? I have no idea, I stick to the plan for today. Go to Gym,take my dance class.

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