The One That Got Away


In Another Life 
i would be your girl 
we`d keep all  our promises
be us against the world 

 ( The One That Got Away - Katy Perry ) 
Back in college years, i had a group of wonderful people, untill now. One of person in the group was had a crush on me. Did I know back then? i thought i did, but i have no idea why suddenly the feeling`s gone. 

 He was one of the sweetest person i`ve known. Kind, witty, easy, simple, funny, and smart. with all the quality i`m not sure where i was standing. We were close friends, to have more than friendship feeling might ruin everything. At least i thought it that way. 
After few years we re-united again, i met him and time seems like it was in college. We talked like no strings attached, just flowed. He was happily married, he lives near my house now. So feels great having your friend again near you. 

 and we started talked about the old days, especially the favorite subject was how i turned him. Had i had known back then? he said i didn`t give him the sign, that he supposed to received, and the most upset thing was i didn`t remember that we were go on  a date and come the worse part i said no. 

 Actually, i don`t know why until now. Why i should turned him? why i didn`t read the sign, break the code, or anything. Like i said, he is a great person. I wouldnt had go on a date if i dont had some kind interest, but being young and reckless, we had our moment and sometimes we had to passed it without knowing if what we did will make other sad. 

 Looking at the bright side, he is now married. He gets everything that he wants and need. and i`m tremendous happy for him, though we couldn`t turn back the time, but i am happy. Happy that i get the chance to know and be friend with this amazing person. Happy because i get a chance to stay in touch after a long lost years. Happy that we can talk everything and the most important thing, i know what i`ve had missed all my life. 

 And for that, i could only wish nothing but the best for him and for our friendship. 

 sometimes, we can not get the idea of romance, but we can have the ideal person whom you think it`s needed at certain moment time. Indeed, everything will be wonderful and it`s got its own moment. 

 in another life 
i would make you stay 
so i dont have to say 
you were the one that got away 

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