33 is the new thingy


Today i`m celebrating a twin number 33
33 years i`ve taken the most extraordinary journey
but the road to this twin number has grown me hopefully with wisdom
i lost some i win some
life is battlefield

hopefully with this new number i become more wiser and more in the perspective

i`ve done so many things i`m most proud of but i also some other things that i`m not most proud of. But i`ll take that as a great lesson in life

some of my stories so devastated
and yet GOD still want me to reach for my happiness

i couldn`t stop cry today. because today i making my own present

thanks to genuine friend so i called him a blessing that i dare myself today with some tough decision. it shaked my world but i feel relieved.

others was true blessing.

i pray that GOD always give me strength. the continues powers to learn my way to HIS

and i wished my papa proud of me from up above.

cheers!

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