a piece of betrayed

last night i was having a moment with an old friend
he`s my ex bf friend. how akward was that :)
but we had a good talked and laughed
was surprising is that i heard what was going on about my ex bf.

my ex is one hell of a fighter,a pride and proud man i`ve ever known in my life
a truly gentleman. i`m not saying this because i have a feeling or somekind i say this because although i knew him short but i understand him. well...that`s what he had said to me once " when it comes to understanding me...only you could". And that he`s a genuine a man that is a man supposed to do. not chicken out of something...well..sometimes he disappeared for contemplating he said.

again, what happened to him was beyond my imagination how can a pride and proud man smashed into the ground like that? with his own partner. with his trust one. If i could guess who can destroy his pride most likely he will fall into woman. but my guess is wrong after all.

so my friend said "well..right now,he doesn`t have anything..literally... he even sold his watch or maybe if nothing`s left he sold his d**k! hahaha."

about a couple months ago before he vanished into his mess. he texted me said " i need to talk. so many things i want to talk about... but before he could share the storm hits pretty hard"


i was truly sad because how people can do such things? how can someone ruin anothers? just be blind by money,get greedy destroy everything. I couldn`t believe my eyes and yet it happened to me too. a relatives/a friend/ a partner whom i thought was so sincere was blinded by money and destroy everything including my family.

i could never find a way to forgive them. Perhaps GOD can, but i dont know. it hurt to damn much to even looked into their greedy eyes.

we die alone anyway, no money, no clothes, just a naked body and full of soul.


and yet the one who destroy us living and having the time of his life with little money they earn sacrifice those hungry, those family who needs their pieces of hardwork


so i pray for him that he`s still be a proud and pride man i`ve always known and rise from the ashes soon.


*do yourself a proud move and everybody will appreciate you even more
AU

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